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Hello? --
8-05-04
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'm obsessing, again.� I know.� I'm mental.� Sue me.
��� How does one cope with having no control over a
situation?� My every moment is spent resisting the urge to e-mail,
call, and otherwise molest this man until he at least tells me what the
hell is going on.� I hate not knowing.
��� And tell me, why do men tell women all the things
that they want to hear and then vanish?� He's sexy, intelligent, young
(but not too young), and looking for the same thing I'm looking for at
the moment: a friend with benefits.� So why is it that once he's convinced
me that he could be that friend, he disappears?
��� We stayed up until 2 AM Tuesday morning discussing
plans, details, and favorite fantasies, finally agreeing to get a hotel
room Monday night.� That's the last I've heard from him.� I've
e-mailed once, and have gotten no reply.
��� I know I probably come off here as a bit neurotic.�
I don't deny that in the least.� But I was nothing but fun when he
and I talked.
��� I don't get that ability to just turn off.�
Is it normal to go a few days without talking to a person you're planning
to have sex with?� I really don't know.� I have no idea what
normal is when it comes to relationships (romantic, sexual, platonic, or
familial).� I've never seen healthy ones.
��� I have way too much free time on my hands.�
Much too much.� It's making me crazy.� And lack of sex certainly
clouds my sense of reason; there is no doubt about that.
��� Am I just being a freak?� Do other people obsess
over this stuff too?
��� God, I miss sex. |
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