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nd the weirdness persists....
��� K called me, yesterday, while I was on my way to
Modesto to work on a costume with some friends.� He told me that there
would be a gathering at his place that night and I was welcome to come
over and hang out.� We would be working on Japanese language.
��� When I got there, there were a few people scattered
around the living room.� I sat down in a chair and realized that it
was the chair that belonged to the guy who'd answered the door, so I got
up.� M, R's wife, was sitting on the love seat across from me.�
She said, "you can sit by me.� I don't bite unless you ask me to."�
She said this good-naturedly, and I sat next to her, feeling every muscle
and instinct inside me bristle and tense.
��� "You wore him out," she said, and I thought I'd
pass out from embarrassment.� I raised my eyebrows like I wasn't sure
what she was talking about, and she laughed and said, "yeah, he's pretty
tired, today."
��� I really can't fathom this relationship they have.�
I can't even let my mind wander to him holding her without my gut wrenching
into my throat.� I don't see how they can be o.k. with letting each
other be with other people.� I just don't get it.
��� Anyway, at one point in the evening, R called her.�
She looked at me and said "R says Hi!"� I didn't know what to say
or do so I just waved.� She told him, "she says Hi back," and she
gave me this weird look.� I told her that I thought she was talking
to the room in general, which is true, and she didn't think I was quite
such the freak after that.
��� J began discussing his piercings.� M asked
him to show her, so he just whipped out his penis right there in front
of everyone.� AND SHE HANDLED IT, TO LOOK AT THE PIERCING!!!�
O.k., I couldn't hold back.� I had to leave the room and splash water
on my face.� It was just too much for me.
��� I had planned to stay the night at K's house.�
He and I were supposed to have a mutual therapy session.� But she
stayed and stayed and stayed and I felt like I should leave but they told
me not to.� So I started to fall asleep on the couch and K and M went
off to the bedroom together.� All I could think about was R at home
in his bed by himself.� I wished I could be there.
��� I need sleep.� I'll feel better and be more
reasonable after a good night's sleep. |
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